"This project started out as an investigation into the traces of a well-kept family secret. While I was revisiting my parents’ trauma – its places, objects and memories that I could not call my own – I found it here, inside myself. My body always knew."

Artist: Peter Pflügler
Project: Now is not the right time 

Book published by The Eriskay Connection

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"When I was two years old, my father went into the woods with the intention of never coming back.

For almost 20 years, my parents chose silence about his suicidal attempt. And still, I found myself drawn to the place where the incident happened and on its anniversary a wave of grief washed over me. When my parents finally decided to tell me, it all started to make sense."



"This is not only a story about a suicide attempt. This is about the impossibility of secrets, about what we are sharing when we hide. About pain inflicted out of love, about the complexity of silence, and the unexplainable sadness of a boy.

Mum, Dad, this is your trauma, that you kept wrapped up in countless colorful blankets and yet unknowingly handed over to me in a loving embrace.
I will carry it with care.



© Peter Pflügler published by The Eriskay Connection

Editor : Ecaterina Rusu

Peter Pflügler is a visual storyteller from Austria, living in the Netherlands.
His work centers around the dynamics of secrets, intergenerational trauma and silence. He believes that the hidden dark spots in our family history trickle through the silence and influence our lives. Since their origin lie in the unknown, we struggle putting them into a narrative. This friction is also apparent in his photographic methods, where he merges the banal and the mysterious, the observed and the staged.
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